15 November 2011

More goodbyes and a happy-sad movie

Another IVF is over and we're saying goodbye to our embryos. The last two days have been so sad since I realised that they would be leaving us soon and today my heart is in pieces again as we say goodbye to another two lost babies who were very much wanted and loved by me and their big brother, and our family. I'm feeling so tired and defeated and my heart hurts so much. I'm forever grateful that I have Sunnyboy and we will always have each other.

Sunnyboy doesn't want us to be sad any more so he made an arrangement of his toys so we could be "happy-sad" and took a picture of them for me.

Then he made a "happy-sad" movie.

I am incredibly happy and lucky to have such an amazing sunny boy and grateful too that we got to bring these embryo babies home and have them here with us. I wish they'd stayed. I wish we had more than just memories.

Our embryos are home
6th November 2011


  1. So sorry for your loss sweetie xxx but so happy that you have such an amazing wee man to help you through it.

  2. I am so sorry about your loss. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

  3. I am so sorry. You have such a sweet little boy.

  4. So sorry for your loss. Hugs. What a special boy you have there.

  5. I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I know it is devastating, but with your little one keeping an eye on you, I believe he will keep you going strong.

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  6. So sorry for your loss, I will be keeping you and your family in my prayers....

  7. We are so very sorry for you both in your sadness and the pain of your loss, Mum and Dad

  8. I'm sorry for you and your family's loss. It's so hard not to have hope each cycle and it's even hard to see that hope crushed at the end of each cycle. Hang in there.