Two weeks have gone by without my babies. I want them to still be here. I want them back. We've entered a new year but they are gone now, left in 2010 forever. My heart aches for them and it breaks a little bit more each time Sunnyboy tells me about something he wants to show the babies. I hope one day he will get to be a big brother. I'm falling apart, trying to hold on through my tears for the babies we'll never meet, but I have Sunnyboy and I still have hope.