2011

2011 has been a hard year. Thank you Sunnyboy for making it the best year too. I love you and it was a good day today.

2011 in header pictures

1. January, 2. February, 3. March, 4. April, 5. May, 6. June, 7. July, 8. August, 9. September, 10. October, 11. November, 12. December

Sharing Hope from 2011

1. Ray of Hope, 2. Sharing Hope (Bourn Hall), 3. Spring Blossom, 4. Stones, 5. Lambing time at the farm, 6. Orange Blossom, 7. Sunnyboy (and Easter Eggs), 8. Buttons, 9. Flowers for our two little embryos, 10. Stepping Stones, 11. Do you believe in magic, 12. Holding Hands, 13. Constantly keep courage with you, 14. Holding Hands 2, 15. Holding Hands 3, 16. Climbing, 17. Looking for Hope, 18. Flowers for my IF friends, 19. Hope Street, 20. Looking for Hope 2, 21. Keep On Hoping, 22. Hope Street 2, 23. A year at Bourn Hall, 24. Never Never Ever give up hope, 25. The Battles and the Breakthrough, 26. I hope, 27. I hope 2, 28. Hope Grows, 29. Hoping with a fragile hope, 30. Autumn leaves

Sharing Hope
Ray of Hope at l.i.b.e.r.a.t.i.o.n. theory
finally a break through at l.i.b.e.r.a.t.i.o.n. theory
My Hopeful Journey
A Little Bit Pregnant... at This is More Personal
Dreaming (Of Hope) at Daily Living
Grow and Bloom, Ovaries! at It's a Brave New World, Baby
Broody IVF Mummy
i quit at l.i.b.e.r.a.t.i.o.n. theory
The Swannell's Baby Wishes
Week One of the Rest of My Life at Ready to be a Mom
Share Hope at Clear Passage
To my Son at Broody IVF Mummy
Road2Baby
The kind of evening at Making it up
Hope Is a Four Letter Word by Jay Bronte at Fertility Authority
From Conception to Birth – The Miracle Of Life at Chasing a Miracle
The two week worship
We Have Access! at Finding My New Normal
Return To The Jedi at Ready to be a Mom
Grief and hope post-miscarriage. at createdfamily
Milestones at the end of the Rainbow at It's a Brave New World, Baby
And then there were three! at Who Am I, Why Am I Here?
How did I get so lucky? at Who Am I, Why Am I Here
Come into the Light
Frozen Embryo Transfer-FET at Inconceivable! Journey of a Living Heart
Miscarriage: women suffer still at LLM Calling
sigh of relief at l.i.b.e.r.a.t.i.o.n. theory
TTC #2: The Journey of Getting Pregnant...AGAIN!
{infertility friday} a little hope with dr hope... at {a nuttier life}
A Good Omen and the Courage to Hope at grit and patience
Let It Shine, Girl… at two week worship
Hope Sings at not a Fertile Myrtle
Virtual Friends Blog Love! at Stress Free Infertility
Bitter Sweet at Road2Baby
BEST. NEWS. EVER. at l.i.b.e.r.a.t.i.o.n. theory
Today in Retrospect at Stress Free Infertility
Words of Hope (1) at not a Fertile Myrtle
mine at built in birth control
Words of HOPE (2) at not a Fertile Myrtle
Usually I love roller coasters at Dead Cow Girl
I have a strong faith in my God at motherhood adoption IVF and everything in between
Occupy at Alternicity
Angels For Hope



If you have images and words of hope to share please put a link to your post in the comments and I'll add it to the list.

Moments from 2011

{this moment}


January to April 2011


April to July 2011


July to September 2011


September to December 2011

See more mosaics at Mosaic Monday

Flowers from 2011

These flowers are for Canana (thank you for the lovely gifts Canana).


1. Ray of Hope, 2. Spring in our garden, 3. Spring in our garden, 4. Spring in our garden, 5. Spring in our garden, 6. Spring skies in our garden and a Super Moon, 7. Spring skies in our garden and a Super Moon, 8. {this moment}, 9. Sharing Hope - Spring Blossom, 10. Time, 11. Sharing Hope - Orange Blossom, 12. Bees (Nozy's Nature Pictures), 13. Bees (Nozy's Nature Pictures), 14. Lunch is pineapple and rooibos tea, 15. Butterflies (Nozy's Nature Pictures), 16. Sharing Hope - Flowers for our two little embryos, 17. Poppy, iris and tulip (Nozy's Nature Pictures), 18. Poppy, iris and tulip (Nozy's Nature Pictures), 19. Poppy, iris and tulip (Nozy's Nature Pictures), 20. {this moment}, 21. Six months, 22. A sunny day at the botanic garden, 23. A sunny day at the botanic garden, 24. A sunny day at the botanic garden, 25. A sunny day at the botanic garden, 26. Tiny, 27. Sharing Hope - Flowers for my IF friends, 28. Roses (Nozy's Nature Pictures), 29. Roses (Nozy's Nature Pictures), 30. Butterfly on blue flowers (Nozy's Nature Pictures)

See more flower pictures at Today's Flowers

Christmas Day

Sunnyboy's Christmas list

For Father Christmas ("pretend he's real mum")

1 Mince pie
1 Glass of milk
1 Glass of wine
5 Carrots for his reindeer
1 New hat
5 Hats for his elves
5 Jumpers for his elves
5 T-shirts for his elves

Our babies

Thinking of all our babies. We miss them.


1. To my babies - 21st December 2010, 2. Bringing our little embryos home - 23rd April 2011, 3. Our embryos are home - 6th November 2011, 4. Day 31 and after (our little fighter) - 5th December 2011

Seasonal

Corner View was created by Jane at Spain Daily and is hosted by Francesca at FuoriBorgo. We are invited to post pictures telling the stories of our different lives and cultures. This week's theme is 'Seasonal'.



Corner Views from around the world:

Jane, Dana, Bonny, Joyce, Ian, Francesca, Theresa, Cate, Kasia, Otli, Trinsch, Isabelle, Janis, Kari, jgy, Lise, Dorte, McGillicutty, Sunnymama, Ibb, Kelleyn, Ninja, Sky, RosaMaria, Juniper, Valerie, Sammi, Cole, Don, WanderChow, FlowTops, Tania, Tzivia, Kristin, Laura, Guusje, Susanna, Juana, Elsa, Nadine

Birds (Nozy's Nature Pictures)

Blue tit


Long tailed tit


Robin

See more animal pictures at Camera Critters

Our tree

An update 14th December,
more added

What happened

We thought both babies had gone so when I found out one was still there and still growing it was the most amazing feeling. I didn't understand how but we had a miracle and we had hope. To be pregnant and to have hope was so special. When I found out the pregnancy was ectopic the doctors weren't certain if the baby was in my fallopian tube, or if it was just outside or on my ovary. Of course I became fixated on how that could happen. The remaining left tube had been blocked for over twenty years, how could an embryo get through it? The baby was growing inside my tube though and now I think I understand how. Sunnyboy said to me "The baby must've been holding on to you really tight to stay and not get washed away by the blood." so we've been looking at diagrams of the female reproductive system. I'd wanted to be looking at pictures of a growing baby not pictures of an empty uterus. I understand how but I don't understand why.

Day 31 and after

I went for an ultrasound scan at on Friday, day 31 (6 weeks and 3 days pregnant), and although baby was still growing the pregnancy was ectopic. I was referred by the doctor at Bourn Hall to the early pregnancy unit so we drove there from the clinic, then Sunnyboy went to stay with his grandparents and I was admitted to hospital that evening. Surgery was on Sunday morning. It hurt so much saying goodbye to baby and it hurts so much that baby is gone. I'm so sad to have lost our little fighter.


View from the window at Bourn Hall, Friday 2nd December

For our baby (our little fighter)

We love you little fighter and we always will. Goodbye little one and thank you for making me smile.