Three embryos are home

Yesterday morning we brought home three day 5 embryos.
Please stay little ones. Your mother and your big brother love you very much.

At the clinic after the embryo transfer.



Home.

Two more embryos are home

Yesterday morning we brought home two day 5 embryos. Their big brother has given them each lots of kisses and told them he loves them. We both love them and want them to stay.

At the clinic half an hour after the embryo transfer.



Home.





2nd July - Sunnyboy has named our embryos Tiddler and Tom.

Where there's tea there's hope

The last time I posted a picture as part of my Sharing Hope series was during the two week wait of my last IVF cycle that ended in an ectopic pregnancy. When we lost our little fighter it felt like I also lost the last of the hope that I'd been holding on to, that if I tried hard enough eventually I'd be able to give Sunnyboy a sibling. I felt I couldn't grieve properly for our lost babies and still have the strength to carry on trying, and face another IVF cycle. But I did grieve and still am, and so is Sunnyboy, and I've been coming to terms with Sunnyboy most likely remaining an only child while my heart aches because I know how much he wants to be a big brother. Now that I'm so close to another due date without a baby my hope is finally starting to return, just a little, but it's a different hope. It's a hope that I find the strength to try again and that whatever happens, and even without ever being able to have another baby and a brother or sister for Sunnyboy, we will be OK. Because we are OK. We're happy and we're enjoying the good days.

So here's my new hope t-shirt and if you'd like to share images and words of hope too I'd love you to put a link to your post in the comments.





I've submitted this post to the PAIL Bloggers (Pregnant and/or Parenting through Adoption/Infertility/Loss) July 2012 - monthly theme post - family building and Stirrup Queens 2012 Creme de la Creme List.

Where I live and self-portrait

Corner View was created by Jane at Spain Daily and is hosted by Francesca at FuoriBorgo. We are invited to post pictures telling the stories of our different lives and cultures. This week's themes are 'where I live' and 'self-portrait'.

Last week Sunnyboy stayed with Nozy one afternoon and I went into town without him for the first time. While I was in town I took these photographs of 'where I live' (and some flowers).























The 'self-portrait' I've chosen was taken last year on a sunny October day with Sunnyboy.



Corner Views from around the world:
Jane, Dana, Bonny, Joyce, Ian, Francesca, Theresa, Cate, Kasia, Otli, Trinsch, Isabelle, Janis, Kari, jgy, Lise, Dorte, McGillicutty, Sunnymama, Ibb, Kelleyn, Ninja, Sky, RosaMaria, Juniper, Valerie, Sammi, Cole, Don, WanderChow, FlowTops, Tania, Tzivia, Kristin, Laura, Guusje, Susanna, Juana, Elsa, Nadine

Self portraits from 2011

Self portrait challenge

More goodbyes and a happy-sad movie

Another IVF is over and we're saying goodbye to our embryos. The last two days have been so sad since I realised that they would be leaving us soon and today my heart is in pieces again as we say goodbye to another two lost babies who were very much wanted and loved by me and their big brother, and our family. I'm feeling so tired and defeated and my heart hurts so much. I'm forever grateful that I have Sunnyboy and we will always have each other.

Sunnyboy doesn't want us to be sad any more so he made an arrangement of his toys so we could be "happy-sad" and took a picture of them for me.



Then he made a "happy-sad" movie.

I am incredibly happy and lucky to have such an amazing sunny boy and grateful too that we got to bring these embryo babies home and have them here with us. I wish they'd stayed. I wish we had more than just memories.


Our embryos are home
6th November 2011

Our embryos are home

After another IVF cycle at Bourn Hall, today we brought home two top grade day 5 embryos (blastocysts). Please stay little ones. In the words of Sunnyboy, "We love you".

Sharing Hope - I hope 2

Sharing Hope is a weekly link collection for anyone who has some hope to share or is needing hope. Everyone is invited to share images and words of hope. For now I'll be using the same linky each week so we can gather lots of hope together but even if you've added a link in previous weeks you are more than welcome to add more each time. Please add a button or a link to Sharing Hope in your posts so others can visit and join in. Find out more about Sharing Hope and how to get a button here.




Self portrait 32

Sharing Hope
I have a strong faith in my God at motherhood adoption IVF and everything in between
Occupy at Alternicity

Sharing Hope - I hope

Sharing Hope is a weekly link collection for anyone who has some hope to share or is needing hope. Everyone is invited to share images and words of hope. For now I'll be using the same linky each week so we can gather lots of hope together but even if you've added a link in previous weeks you are more than welcome to add more each time. Please add a button or a link to Sharing Hope in your posts so others can visit and join in. Find out more about Sharing Hope and how to get a button here.




Self portrait 31

Sharing Hope
mine at built in birth control
Words of HOPE at not a Fertile Myrtle
Usually I love roller coasters at Dead Cow Girl

A year

September 2010
This was our first visit to Bourn Hall since December 2005 (when my life changed forever).




September 2011
Back at Bourn Hall today after many more visits during the last year.

Thinking of all our babies

1. To my babies, 2. Four weeks have gone by, 3. Sunshine and shadows at the Botanic Garden, 4. Two months, 5. Ray of Hope, 6. Reflections at the Botanic Garden, 7. Sharing Hope, 8. Three months, 9. Today is four months, 10. Sunnyboy, 11. Bringing our little embryos home, 12. Saying goodbye again, 13. Sunnyboy's self portraits, 14. Flowers for our two little embryos, 15. Six months, 16. A sunny day at the Botanic Garden

Sunnyboy's self portraits

6th May 2011