sunnydaytodaymama: 2011

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31 January 2014

This year

Life has been busy and blogging has been intermittent over the last year so thank you to our readers who are still reading and a belated Happy New Year to you all. Also a thank you to Canana for the lovely Christmas gifts and another fantastic card, which Sunnyboy loved. This poem is for you.

The Big Book To Grow On with illustrations by Janusz Grabianski

This year we will be blogging again regularly both here and at sunny happy boy. Among other posts we have planned we'll be posting about some of the projects we've been doing. We have more of our Ancient Egypt project to share, and new projects including The Stone Age, The History of Flight, Around The World In Eighty Days, and lots more.

Weasels at Heffers Bookshop

In February we will be celebrating our five year blog anniversary and will also be sharing some exciting news and changes at sunnydaytodaymama. We're looking forward to spending more time here and at your blogs this year.

Here's a look back at the last five years at sunnydaytodaymama and we hope you'll join us for more sunny days this year and in the years to come.

2009

2010

2011

2012

2013

21 December 2012

Winter

If you have a post with an winter theme, we'd love you to link up at our All Year Round Blog Carnival: Winter, which is open for new links until March.

If you'd be interested in hosting the carnival at your blog please let me know in the comments or contact us here.

Thinking of all our babies. We miss them.

1. To my babies - 21st December 2010, 2. Bringing our little embryos home - 23rd April 2011, 3. Our embryos are home - 6th November 2011, 4. Day 31 and after (our little fighter) - 5th December 2011

24 July 2012

Always in our thoughts

Thinking today, and everyday, of our little fighter and all our babies.
We miss them.

22 July 2012

Where there's tea there's hope

The last time I posted a picture as part of my Sharing Hope series was during the two week wait of my last IVF cycle that ended in an ectopic pregnancy. When we lost our little fighter it felt like I also lost the last of the hope that I'd been holding on to, that if I tried hard enough eventually I'd be able to give Sunnyboy a sibling. I felt I couldn't grieve properly for our lost babies and still have the strength to carry on trying, and face another IVF cycle. But I did grieve and still am, and so is Sunnyboy, and I've been coming to terms with Sunnyboy most likely remaining an only child while my heart aches because I know how much he wants to be a big brother. Now that I'm so close to another due date without a baby my hope is finally starting to return, just a little, but it's a different hope. It's a hope that I find the strength to try again and that whatever happens, and even without ever being able to have another baby and a brother or sister for Sunnyboy, we will be OK. Because we are OK. We're happy and we're enjoying the good days.

So here's my new hope t-shirt and if you'd like to share images and words of hope too I'd love you to put a link to your post in the comments.

I've submitted this post to the PAIL Bloggers (Pregnant and/or Parenting through Adoption/Infertility/Loss) July 2012 - monthly theme post - family building and Stirrup Queens 2012 Creme de la Creme List.

20 July 2012

Make Me Smile (after an ectopic pregnancy)

When I walked back into the waiting room minutes after my last IVF embryo transfer, with two day 5 embryos (blastocysts) in my uterus, "Make Me Smile (Come Up and See Me)" was playing on the radio. I told my little ones that this would always be our song.

After a two week wait that ended in tears and more tears, and then a miracle, the time that I was pregnant was extremely anxious but very special. I had a little fighter and I had hope, although I knew it was a very fragile hope. I had an ultrasound scan booked for day 31 and the day before the scan I heard our song on the radio again. Sunnyboy and I were at work stocking the toy shelves with soft toys when it came on and at that moment I knew in my heart that I was going to lose our little fighter too.

The next day after the scan, finding out the pregnancy was ectopic, being admitted to hospital and then discharging myself to come home and pack a bag, I sat down and cried until I was ready to face phoning a taxi to go back to hospital. While I sat at home crying I posted our song for our baby and said goodbye. Then I came home from hospital two days later without a baby.

I should be nine months pregnant now. I'm not. I don't get to give birth to and hold that baby but we still have our song. A song that always makes me cry and smile for a baby that Sunnyboy and I will always miss and love.

Thank you little fighter. You make me smile.

11 January 2012

Creme de la Creme of 2011

This is the post I submitted to the Creme de la Creme of 2011

Saying Goodbye Again (from Sunnydaytodaymama): A mother says goodbye to the embryos that didn’t make it post-transfer, all the while looking at her IVF child and knowing how much he wants to be a big brother.

Today another could have been due date passes and I'm thinking of all our babies.